i dunno how long ago was this posted but will juz add in….
I’m not a christian. I help out in sintua, mediumship service but I will not comment on Taoism practice here.
From killermote comments, he is right to say you must have faith in Him and the His words; Bible. Of course we are all humans and not everyone of us can have the same strength in Faith. I will recommend you to seek you pastor assistance in this as these people are learnt and have tremendous amount of faith, they may then assist you.